| Tuesday, September 5th, 2006 |
| 2:44 pm |
not a poem just spoofed into a poemish thing
hay im alive and kicking im planing on living this year im goin to do all of my work im GONA PASS im gona love like never b4 im gona have a year to remember when im in the army all alown with out you their im gona look back on this year and remember what we did and what we had im gona be happy for a change im gona be up beat im gona impress you all im goin to show you a me you dint know existed and im just gona have fun like i havent b4 Current Mood:  optimistic |
| Wednesday, August 2nd, 2006 |
| 11:06 pm |
alive
i woud just like to tell all of you that i am still alive and im getting healthy(if you dont know what i meen then u never will)a doc app.is comin up wish me well thats it bye now Current Mood: sunburnt |
| Friday, June 9th, 2006 |
| 9:50 am |
fh
blah im just so bord i have like nothing to do im workin on my ame.exp final with my nessa i <3 her but im missin my girl so much i only got to talk to her four about 2 mins last night its not cool its really not cool but i have to go Current Mood: meahCurrent Music: every time we touch |
| Thursday, June 8th, 2006 |
| 1:02 pm |
no teacher w00t
ok well im in science my teacher isint in school right now w00t i hate her with a passion she gave us a test today that no one knew what was goin on she never went over what was on the test it is quite fucked up we all wish to kill her but we helped eachother with the answers so hopefully we all pass we shall see. lissa is my hero helyna is my dyket plain and simple anna.....not much to say im so in love it rocks w00 Current Mood:  boredCurrent Music: emo song |
| Wednesday, May 31st, 2006 |
| 7:49 am |
meah
"i still hear your voice when you sleep next to me" im in such a dream state its like ill never know lonleyness again its like a feeling ive been looking for has been found evin tho its always been their its like only she knows me like shes the only one for me *sigh* i need her in danbury Current Mood: contentCurrent Music: lesbian stuff |
| Thursday, May 18th, 2006 |
| 2:20 pm |
cfhb
im at colins and im probly borin kat with my stupidity Current Mood: bored |
| Monday, May 15th, 2006 |
| 8:03 am |
could death come sooner
so today i hit a wall it dosent evin hurt i hate life so much and im just done if i wasent wiccan i would more than lickly kill my self Current Mood: chipper |
| Thursday, May 11th, 2006 |
| 8:15 am |
why
sometimes i just have to wonder who actuly cares and why they would nicole just said something that upset me she said she might go out with gabe again and i hate that boy with a passion hes such an emo boy AHHHHHHH!!!! i fuckin want to kill that fucker hes so stupid what dose she see in him what is it that he has that i dont (besides the dick) because hes an ASS!!!!! (and its not just 'cause hes a guy) will i ever be good enough for her....EVER! why do i evin care to be alive any more its useless she'll never be mine and i just dont want to live with this pain anymore *sigh* Current Mood:  tired |
| Friday, May 5th, 2006 |
| 12:49 pm |
dfgsb
why am i awake i NEED SLEEP NOw Current Mood: tired |
| Monday, May 1st, 2006 |
| 8:24 am |
R.I.P Moose
well saterday i lost me cat moose she had a tumor on her toung and it went black so she had to be put down i held her when they gave her the drug ive helped her the last 3 months ive fead her threw the tube in her neck ive cleaned her ive babied her nonstop she was my cat i loved her im gona miss havin her in my room at night i dont think i will ever be ok from this ive lost the only thing in my family to love me Current Mood: depressed |
| Wednesday, April 5th, 2006 |
| 8:30 am |
WOOT IM SICK Lissa i miss u helyna your wierd anna....... ok im done now Current Mood:  sick |
| Monday, March 13th, 2006 |
| 8:28 am |
just stupid emotans
Another Broken Heart For The Garbage This time it’s real And its hear to stay I can’t help the way I feel I can’t help that I hate you so much And yet I love you You have my heart in your secret box Locked away for only you You know what you do to me You know how I feel You know the pain inside You know I want to die You don’t know what its like To have the pain rip you apart To feel your heart ripped apart at the seams Every stitch I put in my heart Has ripped right open Every tear that falls They are falling for you Falling for your memory That lingers inside The memory in which You said those 3 simple words And I actually believed in them But the thing is I don’t want my heart back You can keep it I don’t want it any more It’s useless it’s never right I’ll rip my heart out and give it to you I’ll give it all bloodied and broken And fall for you once again Because I still believe in those 3 simple words you said this is what i have been feeling lately im amazed that i actually got it out but the thing is that when you said that you would be mine back then it gave me hope but to have that ripped away hurts so damn much that it almost killed me to not have you here in my arms to not be mine like i said u would.......idk. Current Mood: sore |
| Monday, March 6th, 2006 |
| 7:44 am |
anger for the world today
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh anger for the world right their ok so if i where to die tommorow no one would really care ok thats it bye now i lurve anna, heleyna, and of corse most of all lissa Current Mood:  angry |
| Thursday, March 2nd, 2006 |
| 7:47 am |
y
well sence ppl dont pay attion to me anyway im gona rant so i wright a poem on allpetry an it just goes to show no onwe really cares any more so i just give up on it all i give up on the consept of "love" i give up on theis "life" if u can evin call what i do living i cry almost every night now my grandma is in the hosipatal and i want to die i think i'll end this here so bye now Current Mood: annoyed |
| Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006 |
| 7:45 am |
meah
well last night was shitty but i'll deal I HAVE DRUGS W0000000000TTTTTTup?(THANK HELEYNA!) w00t im gona be happy all today i already hit something with my moms car ha ha ha ha ha ha o well at least she and to mad at me for it she was odly ok witth it idk she scared me last night Current Mood:  crazy |
| Thursday, February 2nd, 2006 |
| 7:58 am |
missin my grandma
i close my eyes i see her i hear her voice as if shes right next to me i hear her her yell at thew stupid court people i hear her tea cetal i see her smiling face as it always was i See her apartment how it used to be i see the door to her apartment i go downstairs its not the same i hear birds chirping i see the tombstone and i feel the tears drop as i begin to remember as it used to be how it was when you where still alive i will always love you Grandma i did this for a class i read it to them and i was crying so bad. i cryied befor i evan began to read this and i cryied the whol class peroud because i had never talked out loud about her because it hurt so bad, but i think its time to start letting her go its ben about 7-8 years and i still feel like shes gona walk threw the door any day now.... |
| Wednesday, February 1st, 2006 |
| 8:03 am |
fdshtewjtr4
i dont know what to do any more my life is in a never ending hell my wings are bluddied and broken again my wings and heart go hand in hand one is the other and i cant stand this this pain is all too real she wants to fix them she wants to try and help but i dont think im gona lett her i have grown fond of the pain ita all my own ive been hurt so many times kickied when im down i thought he was my friend i loved him Matt that is i thought when i had him it would all be ok but i was wrong it was worse because he left just like i knew he would he left to another state and hes no where to be found when my NANNA diyed i kept the pain all in just like i did with my grandma B. i helped my grandma with every thing she was a mother when my mom wasent around i cant evin talk about her with out crying their is so much non of you know about me and its killin me but this is what i take i take the bad for the good the pain over happyness i'll take eternal torment over happyness every single day of the week but this is just who i am and i hope you understand a little more about me Current Mood: pessimisticCurrent Music: 3 doors down:kryptonite |
| Friday, January 27th, 2006 |
| 8:06 am |
hi
well sence i have no life im wrighting annother one w00t for no life. well i havent really talked face to face with Kat its like we only talk online dont get me wrong its great i like to hear every thing she has to say. most of all i love her sotryies they ammuse me. idk im glad we have a date this weekend wheir going to see a movie togather YAY idk i love going on dates it makes it so real. I Love you more Than this air i breath More than this whole world If only you knew Just how much i need you here Here by my side _janine_ Current Mood:  okay |
| 8:03 am |
RRRR
as we all know im a fucking ass hole who should die. bet besides that im deppressed yet again. w00t well i have nothing really to say yea good bye 1/28/06<3333 Current Mood: cheerful |
| Wednesday, January 25th, 2006 |
| 8:22 am |
well here it is
ok so latly i have ben deppresssed i have looked at my razor and my knife and i wonder why did i stop why did i quit. i dont evin see a reason to get mad at ppl for it, when all the time i want to, their are so many times when i wish i could take it all back, i wish i could kill myself. but i dont want to hurt people i love. mabey thats why i hate love, mabey thats why i should just not have friends. then i could die and no one would care, i just wish i could bleed out. blead till theirs nothing left. i have had enought of life. i wroght this calm so read it calm i have had enough of LJ so bye Current Mood: lazyCurrent Music: Hold on |
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